Sunday 28 June 2020

Review: Hood Feminism: Notes from the Women White Feminists Forgot

Hood Feminism: Notes from the Women White Feminists Forgot Hood Feminism: Notes from the Women White Feminists Forgot by Mikki Kendall
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

An intelligent, insightful read.

It made me more aware of my own ignorance as a white female living in Australia - so many of these things I hadn't even considered - and it made me feel a little ashamed, to be honest.

That being said, the point of this book is not to shame, but to educate. She talks about issues that feminism supposedly tackles and then describes how badly feminism is missing the mark when it comes to women of colour. Apparently racism is more powerful than misogyny. I'm very vocal when it comes to women standing up for women, particularly when it comes to sexual violence, so when I encountered this particular quote regarding rape culture, I was horrified:

When you can't count on solidarity for women in danger, when bystander intervention isn't a solution because white female bystanders may feel that a Black woman's plight doesn't deserve their attention because race has a more powerful effect than gender, then we aren't really battling rape culture.


The scariest part was that, as disgusting as the idea of that is to me, I had to take the time and make sure I wouldn't be someone who stood back. I want to make sure that I don't have any of these subconscious racist notions myself. (I do feel confident that I would help someone in trouble, no matter the colour of their skin. I truly hope so.)

That's such a big part of why this book was so powerful to me. Because so many of these things I hadn't even considered, because my white privilege has kept me safe. I have a home, a family I can rely on, a steady job, and an income that allows me basic needs as well as some things I want. I'm not afraid to walk around the neighbourhood, or hang out in parks, and if I'm really in trouble I'm confident that law enforcement will help. I'm not afraid of being incarcerated for making a mistake, and no one has ever implied that I will be unfit to raise children when the time comes. All of these things I have taken for granted, and if you have too I encourage you to read this book.

This book is begging for accomplices - not just allies. It's not enough to send thoughts and prayers. It's not enough to 'hope things work out'. This book asks us to stop putting the responsibility on the marginalised groups to stand up for themselves and make our own efforts to change how they're treated. They need allies in positions of power to be moved by their plight - to understand that supporting women of colour won't cost them their white privilege - and then actually make changes for the better. They need action from those of us who have had the fortune to be born white.

I've honestly never felt so powerless. I wish I was in a position to do more.

But wishes aren't enough, either, so in the absence of that I intend to educate myself as best I can, and this book was a great introduction. It covers a lot of important subjects in a calm, rational and educated manner. There's even a little humour, and the author uses anecdotes from her own life to help demonstrate the issues.

My only complaint really is that it was too intelligent for me - I could have used a glossary because there are so many terms in here that I'd never heard of before. However that does also highlight once again how naive I was before I picked up this book.

If you're looking to educate yourself on real issues that Black women face, this is a really good starting point because it covers things so comprehensively. Some of it is quite heavy reading, and you may need a dictionary on hand for some of the terms, but it's well worth the time.

I'm grateful to find books like this that can help me learn, and grow, and further understand the struggles of others.

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Tuesday 23 June 2020

Review: North Star Guide Me Home

North Star Guide Me Home North Star Guide Me Home by Jo Spurrier
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Wow I finally finished the series!

... I think.

I mean, with that ending ... are we getting a spin-off? Coz I could totally go a spin-off.

This series is really tricky to rate. I loved it, and enjoyed every moment of reading it, but I don't really know what happened?

WARNING: The following review contains spoilers for the previous two books in the series.

Here's what I liked:
- The characters
-The magic
-The way it cut out all the boring trekking etc
-Unpredictable

Here's what I didn't like:
-Hard to keep track of what's happening
-Delphine

I mean, this was definitely all about the characters for me. I fell instantly in love with Sierra and Isidro in the first book, but Rasten captured my heart in book 2 and he was definitely my fave here. He has such an interesting story and I loved that he was so physically powerful yet so mentally broken. Isidro starts this book clinging to life precariously, so my heart was aching for him as well, and he also has really interesting development. The relationship between him and Sierra is all messed up, and she's vouching for Rasten which adds a lot of tension to this novel. For me, the best part of this book - and the entire series - was seeing what these characters go through, how they deal with it, and how they find the strength to keep pressing on. Delphine is someone I could have done without, though. I mean, she played her part in book 2 but is it really necessary to try to integrate her? She felt like such an outsider in this book, and while that makes me feel for her, it also meant I felt awkward every time she was involved in the action.

The actual journey back to the homeland was a bit confusing - I never really understood what their goal was, how they'd ended up where they were, and what the point was to anything they were doing. That could be because I forgot so much of what had happened in the previous books, but I think it's also because the story works hard to cut out all of the long arduous treks, and political conflicts, that it ends up missing important information. I suppose the world-building was a little weaker than I'd have liked, but to be honest I didn't really care about why they were doing what they were doing, as long as the characters were doing interesting things.

I do feel that the atmosphere was utilised quite well, though - the first book is all cold, harsh winter, whereas with this last installment you do get the sense that the land is beginning to thaw, and the snow beginning to melt. Although apparently that's not the case at all back in their homeland.

The magic system was totally badass, though. I love how prominent the violence was. Like, sure, these are some hardcore mages we're dealing with, but they pay a steep cost. It's pain, blood, and sacrifice, and it just added this element of rawness that made it so much more interesting to me. It was also interesting how they all kinda had their own signature to their magic. Very cool.

Finally, here's some spoiler thoughts:
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To conclude, I love these characters, and they were way more interesting to me than the story. The series is probably not particularly epic, or deep, or even logical, but I just had such a fun time with these characters. So if you are like me and enjoy the process of falling in love with characters (especially bad boys) then I'd highly recommend you give this series a try.

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Review: James and the Giant Peach

James and the Giant Peach James and the Giant Peach by Roald Dahl
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I mean, if all audio books were like this, I'd probably listen to a lot more audio books.

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IT'S HILARIOUS OMG

Meanwhile, the story itself is super weird. Classic Roald Dahl - that guy was seriously off his rocker when he wrote this one. The insects are a funny bunch but James is an annoying little know-it-all and where he pulls his information from is anybody's guess. I'm pretty sure the ridiculousness of Dahl's writing is why I wasn't too keen on his stuff as a kid. He totally makes up his own science and I am not okay with that.

Would never have read this myself so thanks Taika and friends for doing it for me and making it a thousand times better than it would have been. It was a lot of fun. 2-star story, 4-star experience; 3 stars all up.

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Friday 12 June 2020

Review: Ghost Bird

Ghost Bird Ghost Bird by Lisa Fuller
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

HOLY HECK THIS WAS SPOOKY.

The blurb: Stacey and Laney - twins, who are super close but opposite in almost every way. Stacey's the good girl while Laney is more of a rebel, so when Laney goes missing it's only Stacey's 'twinstinct' that tells her her sister is in trouble.

(Yes, I'm pretty sure I just invented the word 'twinstinct'.)

Me reading the blurb: Ooh, a YA crime novel, cool.
Me actually reading this book:
*eyes widen*
*eyes widen further*
*mouth gaping*
*contorting expressions of terror*

It's such a uniquely terrifying story. I'm tempted to add it to my 'horror' shelf, it was that sinister. I mean, the sister goes missing and that's mysterious, but then Stacey (Tace) starts having these nightmares that are completely wild and I will never be able to see a red laser dot ever again without thinking of this book. And shuddering.

I absolutely loved the culture of this story. Aboriginal culture is so rich with myths, legends and customs, and many other things that, as a white woman, I'm not privy to. So it was fascinating to get a glimpse into that world through Tace's eyes. Particularly as she's a spirited teen who is more interested in rational science than the rumours and legends of her Nan. There's also that very clear divide between the 'blackfullas' and the 'whitefullas' (as Tace calls them) that was incredibly relevant to read about in our current climate, despite this being set 20 years ago. The racism in this book is just a matter of fact, and Tace takes it as such, just as she does the hatred between her family and the Millers (despite not knowing why they are at war). She is clearly enraged by the injustice, but at the same time is utterly defeated by it. I really appreciated reading this POV.

The writing style was immersive, and the language used helped me really hear the voices of these characters. It may be a little hard to understand for non-Australians as a lot of the words are clipped, and there were a few words that I wasn't familiar with myself and I assume they are from an indigenous language. The authenticity is a massive part of this story, and it adds such an important realism to the myths and legends as they arise.

I loved the experience of reading this story, and it really did get super creepy. I liked how dark and twisted it was, and that it wasn't just about the culture - there was a gritty story here to carry you away.

If you're looking for a creepy little mystery to sink your teeth into, I recommend this highly. It's also a great option for anyone looking to explore more indigenous authors. LOVED IT.

Note: I'm still considering bumping this up to 5 stars. It all hinges on whether I think I'd wanna read it again. And it was pretty creepy XD

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Thursday 11 June 2020

Review: Angel Mage

Angel Mage Angel Mage by Garth Nix
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

I'd just like to begin with ...

ARE YOU FKING KIDDING ME??

and then follow that up with ...

THANK GOD THIS TORTURE IS OVER.

Everything about this book made me so mad and I don't even know how to properly express my rage. Buckle up, kids, it's going to be a bumpy rant.

Firstly, are we all aware by now that my favourite book of all time is The Three Musketeers? That's vital information. Here's an excerpt from my review of The Vicomte de Bragelonne to give you an idea of my obsession:

The Musketeers are officially my bros, and when I read about them I imagine them as friends, which means I feel their experiences that much more significantly. I laugh out loud, I grin, I gasp, I tear up, I bite my lip and I'm pretty sure if I had a moustache I would twist it. This series gives me a very serious case of feelings.


Naturally, this Musketeer obsession leads me to read anything I get my hands on that's even closely related, and this book here is even dedicated to Dumas and the '73 and '74 films inspired by The Three Musketeers (TTM).

So here's the set up: Set in a world that slightly mirrors historic France, angels are controlled by people and basically used as slaves. Lilliath is a psychopath who did something bad, went to sleep for 137 years or so and now she's awake to finish what she started. Somehow her goal is tied to the fates of four random individuals: Henri, Simeon, Agnez and Dorotea, and there is a high chance I'm spelling all of these names wrong because they're stupid variations of normal names and I'm too damn lazy to check the spelling.

Things I hated:
-The names
-The over-attempt to make this a feminist novel
-Angels being no more than slaves
-Extensive world-building that was mostly confusing
-The story was kind of bland and also confusing
-Random awkward sexual tension
-Issues like racism barely addressed
-THIS DID NOT EVEN COME CLOSE TO THE THREE MUSKETEERS. All it did was steal a handful of characters, make them female, and then completely corrupt their essence.

Here's an example:

Rochefort. In TTM, he is d'Artagnan's nemesis. They get into it, and they're both skilled fighters, but Rochefort is totally ruthless and cunning and spends the novel doing the Cardinal's dirty work. He's a very clear villain.
In this novel, the female Rochefort is the general of the female Cardinal and definitely does her dirty work, but she spends most of this novel being 'poor misunderstood me' and mooning over Dorotea. We are told she's a skilled fighter but this book is more interested in her trying to get into Dorotea's pants.

But I'm getting ahead of myself.

Characters/Names
Firstly, the original names are ridiculous. They just didn't suit and I got them pretty mixed up because they weren't really memorable for a while. I mean who even is Henri? What did he do? Why was he here? Then you've got all the characters lifted from TTM. They're ALL female, now, too. The Cardinal, Rochefort, d'Artagnan. Milady. I think our four friends are somehow supposed to represent the original four musketeers but there are no similarities AT ALL, other than Agnez being a hothead. The angels all blend together and they are in and out of the story so fast they're not worth caring about anyway. Then the place names just made me cringe. Dumas's d'Artagnan was a Gascon; these 'musketeers' are 'Bascons' (so creative). It was such a bastard mix of 'inspired by' TTM and blatantly stolen. Everything that made me love the characters of TTM was completely absent here.

Feminism etc
Look I am all for feminism but this novel was trying way too hard. And not just with feminism. There's a scene where they all get naked together because no one cares about nudity, and the book has more emphasis on same sex couples than hetero. We got told what colour skin everyone has (and it's normally a shade of brown) and all of the best warriors and most powerful characters are women. Representation is great and all, but this just feels cheap. It's like it's going out of it's way to tell you how accepting and open-minded it is, but there's way too much emphasis on it for it to seem normal. I love badass female characters, but there was just no logic to it. It took equality and ran the other way with it, so that the men in this story are soft characters being manipulated by women. Meanwhile there's the 'refusers' who are this book's version of slaves, and it doesn't discuss this issue nearly enough. Points for trying, buddy, but delivery of the themes in this novel would be a D minus.

The Angels
Speaking of barely-addressed slavery, the angels in this book are RUBBISH. There are different tiers of power (thank god for the guide at the front because when they started talking about Thrones I was totally confused) but even the all-powerful archangels are slaves to humans? There are also so many of them that it was pointless keeping track of them all. They might as well have been little fairies or sprites or something. Because they are WEAK. This was such an incredibly disappointing aspect of the story.

World Building vs Story
The problem is, he spent so much time building the world that there just wasn't enough time for a decent story. It was thin and pathetic and really confusing, and there was no real drive to the action. The connection between the four is tenuous and there doesn't seem to be a lot of point to anything. The world-building is extensive, but there is so much of it that it just gets tedious. Throw in that ending and this is basically a pointless, disappointing book.

Conclusion
Look, this is a book that tries so hard to be so many things that it ends up being a mess. It shares some similarities with The Three Musketeers, but it wants to be its own story, too, so it just ends up being a confusing mix of familiar things and completely unrelated magic. There's no real emotion to it anywhere, and the characters don't have any real redeeming qualities. While TTM was based heavily on friendship, loyalty and daring, these 'friends' are a newly formed group, they bicker, they're greedy and ill-mannered and generally don't have strong redeeming qualities to help up overlook this. The musketeers are more of a gratuitous mention than any kind of symbol, and Lilliath is more a sulky, emotional, psychopath teenager than the cunning, skilled assassin the original Milady was. There is so much effort put into making this a story that accepts everyone and everything that there's no real tension to it. There's no struggle. Zero emotional ties to anyone or anything.

I honestly don't know how people unfamiliar with The Three Musketeers are gonna view this one. Maybe you'll have a more enjoyable time because you won't have to witness some of your favourite characters being murdered by creative license. But this was agony for me.

Originally I gave it a generous two stars on finishing, because the beastlings (another creative name) were interesting, but I gotta take that back. My heart is hurting too much. This was an absolute abomination and a shame to the musketeer name. Just read the fking original, honestly.

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Sunday 7 June 2020

Review: Mao's Last Dancer

Mao's Last Dancer Mao's Last Dancer by Li Cunxin
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Well, it took me four months but I did finally finish this book!

WARNING: This review may contain minor broad spoilers. (Details will be spoiler-tagged)

It's not that it was bad, or boring, or anything like that ... it's more that it was hard for me to relate to. I generally hate reading about poverty on all occasions (which is why I stay away from war stories) so the early days of his life were just a real struggle to get through. I hate the thought of people having to live in such conditions.

The thing about memoirs is that they tend to be motivational stories about someone fighting to overcome immense obstacles and come out on top. And while you can't deny the author lived a really tough life in parts, he also had a lot of luck and mere chance on his side as well, which takes away a little of the triumph of his story.

The first half of the book is a real drag, but it does emphasise how important his family is to him. There were a lot of anecdotes, and their living situation is really drilled in - it totally sucked. I understand its necessary inclusion but it doesn't make for fun reading, and it's half the reason it took me so long to get through this book.

Then he's just randomly selected to go and study dance, and he gets all these injuries all the time and it made me cringe so often. Throughout the entire story he gets so many injuries and EVERY. DAMN. TIME. he just dances on. He talks about how excruciating the pain was, but it was easier for him than giving up. I just felt so sickened by that. The level of strength that takes is ridiculous and admirable, but at the same time it seems so foolish to carry on the way he did. If this was a fictional novel, it would just seem so unrealistic! I was so bothered by how much he placed honour and work ethic above his own health.

The story is very much about communist China and the effect it had on his life. I'm not big on politics so a lot of it was confusing and hard to comprehend for me because I've been fortunate enough to have been born with white skin and live in a Western country where I have the freedom to essentially do as I please. In this story, it's when (view spoiler) that finally I began to comprehend the gaping chasm between his way of life and mine. That's when the story really got interesting for me.

I think you really need the comparisons to understand the true trials of his life. While reading, there was a lot of stuff that I disagreed with and felt uncomfortable about, but on reflection and actually pausing to consider the nature of his upbringing, I began to understand his choices a little more.

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I think part of why this book took me so long to get through is that his personality is just so different from mine, and so it was really hard to relate to and therefore appreciate his decisions. There really is also such an element of luck to his story - he just happens to meet the right people, who have powerful friends who can pull the strings that need to be pulled. His story is so incredibly rare, and I don't think anyone can read this book and feel that the same could happen to them. It's definitely full of inspiring moments, but so much of his being able to live his dream depended on chance.

I like memoirs that show me people who overcame the odds with their own strength, resilience and determination. He certainly has all of those qualities, but his success as a dancer by itself wasn't enough. To me, the moral of the story is that it doesn't matter how much hard work or talent you have if you don't know the right people. As far as morals go, that's not exactly inspiring.

So , in summary, I can't say I enjoyed reading this book but I am glad that I did. There is a lot of stuff in it that is hard to relate to, and it's not exactly an inspiring story that motivates you to go out there and chase your own dreams, but at the same time it was really fascinating to read about a life so far removed from my own, and try to understand the cultural differences, and a little about how one's upbringing can make such a drastic impact.

Li Cunxin is an inspiring man, and I'm glad he chose to share his story.

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Review: The Animals at Lockwood Manor

The Animals at Lockwood Manor The Animals at Lockwood Manor by Jane Healey
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

This is a story of ghosts and monsters.

The bright, colourful cover is a bit misleading, because this is a spooky sort of story. There are animals, sure, but they are stuffed specimens with empty glass eyes that bear witness to the strange happenings at Lockwood Manor.

Plot: Hetty is sent from London to watch over the animals, which have been moved from the museum to Lockwood Manor for the duration of the war, so that they might have a better chance of survival. Only, the manor's lord is a menacing sort of fellow, and strange things are occurring - animals are moving about or being misplaced, and there are rumours of a ghost being seen in corridors. Feeling isolated and out of place, Hetty focuses her efforts on protecting the museum's specimens, while slowly becoming closer to the lord's daughter, Lucy.

This was definitely creepier than I was expecting, which I really loved. All those stuffed animals really gives it a spooky atmosphere, and the unfriendly locals and rumours of ghosts helps to charge the tension. Hetty is a quirky sort of girl, and rather obsessed with taking care of her charges, which was both admirable and frustrating at the same time. It certainly didn't make her any friends. Aside from Lucy, that is.

Lucy is a bit strange herself, which is part of what draws the two characters together. They have some similarities in the way they don't seem to fit in with their peers. It was rather interesting getting to know these two, and how they were both similar and different. The growth of their relationship was quite enjoyable, though I was rather saddened by the fact that they seemed to view all men as brutish and simple.

The story starts strong, and becomes eerie almost immediately, but it did slow around the halfway point with not a lot of development. The tension was steady when I wanted it to continue to increase, and I felt that there were a lot of secrets that weren't utilised efficiently. There was no real exploration of the dark and menacing, choosing instead to flick the focus of the story back to the developing relationship between the two women instead. I would have enjoyed it more if it had taken the time to elaborate on all the creepy occurrences.

I also felt that the climax of the story was both too little too late, and a bit weak. I think once I felt like I was in a horror story, the deviations from that felt out of place to me. But this isn't a story of the supernatural - this is a story of people, and how the mind conjures its own ghosts and monsters. So that element I did rather enjoy.

It's a unique sort of story, with more charged atmosphere than galloping action. It's a slow journey of getting to know the people and the manor itself, and focuses on the relationships between people and the power of fear and the subconscious mind.

I really enjoyed it, though it did slow down after the halfway mark and the ending was a little anti-climatic for my tastes. It is, however, beautifully written with a real Gothic horror feel to it, which was unexpected yet not unwelcome.

With thanks to Macmillan for a copy to read and review

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