Monday 28 September 2020

Review: The Girl in the Mirror

The Girl in the Mirror The Girl in the Mirror by Rose Carlyle
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Daaaamn this book made me so anxious.

I hate lying. Lying makes me nervous. Liars always get found out. ALWAYS.

But this concept fascinates me.

It's similar to the plot of that TV show with Sarah Michelle Gellar that got axed, leaving me without a conclusion. So it was nice to get some closure through this story.

But still.

It was close to agony living through this story.

The blurb sums up the first third of the book, which is something that frustrates me a little but it also allows you to hang in there for the boring first 100-odd pages while rebel sister Iris goes sailing with perfect sister Summer and then loses her to the sea. Now Iris - who has been living in the shadow of her perfect twin all her life - is faced with the opportunity of stepping into that very same perfect life.

Look, I should have known from that blurb that it'd make me uncomfortable, but the lies upon lies really made me nauseous. I don't know why it gets me so much! Just the thought of the humiliation and pain that will come from being exposed in the lie ... it does something to me. I don't want that for anyone - especially not a character like Iris who I tragically related to so much. She's the one who's considered a bit of a rebel, the black sheep of the family, and she's cynical and ruthless and totally awkward with kids but at the same time she actually just wants to be loved as much as her twin is.

I loved the way Iris was written, because she has some very clear flaws and is a bit of a lost soul but somehow I still felt drawn to her. You can feel how much she's hurting, and you can tell all the bluster about nice people being idiots is just a false layer to cover how much it hurts that her twin is preferred by everyone.

The story is twisted, and damn near broke my heart so many times. But all the lies and false pretences make it such a wild, thrilling ride, and you know it's all going to end badly but you can't help but keep reading anyway. It really did make me anxious lol. The twists are unreal though so if you love a good twisty thriller you'll eat this right up.

Once you get over the mildly dull start that sets it all up, you won't be able to put it down.

This is an intelligent, anxiety-inducing thriller that I highly recommend. You will be on the edge of your seat til the very last page.

With thanks to A&U for a copy

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Friday 25 September 2020

Review: The Four Legendary Kingdoms

The Four Legendary Kingdoms The Four Legendary Kingdoms by Matthew Reilly
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

**Re-read 09/20**

The benefit of forgetting details of books I've read is that I can re-read something like this and still be on the edge of my seat. It's so intense!

You can definitely feel the time between books, so it's good that it's set many years after the conclusion of The Five Greatest Warriors. The vibe is a little different, and it feels very much like a book written with the fans in mind - there's less history-chasing, and we're fixed in one spot rather than galavanting around the world. I think, by tightening the scope, Reilly has been able to produce a harder, faster installment, and it makes it much more thrilling. Plus there's that one character (or two, really) that fans have been waiting for Jack to meet so finally our fan-girl/boy/other dreams are all coming true. <3

Jack is still faced with complicated puzzles to solve, but there's no way he can go it all alone so there are some familiar faces along for the ride. That being said, several from the previous books don't even appear here, and others have rather minor roles. (view spoiler) I didn't mind it at all, though, because there are so many new characters we get to have fun with, and Jack is facing off against a bunch of horrible, ruthless people so you know there's gonna be some serious carnage. I'm glad some of our friends were safe from it all!

I loved that it was this ferocious set of challenges but there was still the logical element to it, too, and the ancient mythology and historical facts mixed in to make it a proper Jack West Jr adventure. I also love that Jack is just so true to himself. He grumbles a little bit about being thrown into these messes (understandable) but then he just gets it done anyway. But no matter the challenge he still does things his OWN way - it makes him such a loveable character. Plus it gives us so many awesome moments. Like, sure, he's this noble guy and he believes all people derserve respect and he fights for what's right, absolute hero, etc etc ... but please don't think for a second that he's above giving the bad guys the finger.

Absolutely LOVE this adventure. It's a separate adventure from that covered in the first three books, but there's still that link between them, and it's definitely setting up for an epic continuation of the series. (The next of which I've also read, and forgotten. LOL *awkward laugh*)

A fantastic read and a brilliant addition to the series, but if you're not familiar with some of Reilly's other work you'll miss out on a fair bit of the fun of this one. Same goes if you're not familiar with the previous three novels. On the other hand, if you're all caught up, you should absolutely love this.


**Original Review 10/16**

Epic. Totally epic. Well worth the wait for this fourth installment in the Jack West Jr series! It's a beautiful blend of the old and the new, with more history and mythology built into non-stop action, only the scale here is much bigger. We don't have the whole team from the previous novels but there's a decent serve of other characters that quite easily fill the hole and indeed make things even more interesting. The challenges themselves are interesting; perhaps less puzzling than what we're used to but they still maintain plenty of intensity. Even amidst the action though there are some beautiful themes so the human element is still very much present. There are some predictable outcomes however it's their delivery that keeps things alive so they in no way lessen the thrills. This novel can be easily devoured in one sitting if you have the time but beware - finishing it so suddenly is likely to result in a decent book-hangover. I already miss it, and will be hanging out for the next one!

An absolute must for fans of the Jack West Jr series, and a worthy read for fans of Matthew Reilly. You won't be disappointed!

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Review: The Survivors

The Survivors The Survivors by Jane Harper
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Maybe it's me.

Maybe I'm just not feeling crime novels like I used to.
Maybe I've been too spoiled lately with unique stories.
Maybe too much reading has left me jaded.

Whatever the reason, I found this frustrating and slow and ultimately disappointing.

Setup: A whole bunch of secrets in a small Tasmanian coastal town, and Kieran digging through the past while we all try to work out who's responsible for the recent death of a girl.

The Good Bits

The Setting
I can't argue about Jane Harper's ability to set the scene. She does it well, and anyone who has ever visited an Australian coastal town will recognise it here. She has a way of transporting you to the locations she writes about, and it's definitely the best part of her writing.

The Tangle of Information
There is a lot of information to absorb - some of it relevant to solving the mystery, some of it just to throw you off. It's all jumbled together so there is the fun element of trying to untangle everything and come to your own conclusions.

The Cast of Characters
Look, I didn't really like any of them, but they were an interesting bunch and different enough that it kept the story interesting. Plus having so many of them meant there were lots of guesses as to who was behind all the drama.

The Frustrating Bits

The Pace
The first half of this novel really dragged, because it put so much time into talking about the lives of so many characters and setting out the misdirects for the mystery to come. So there are a lot of info dumps and not really a lot of action. The second half picks up a bit, and finally it does get to be an addictive read but, for me, the lack of interest at the start meant I wasn't as invested in the conclusion as I could have been.

The Allusions to the Past
This was hands down the most frustrating part for me. It works so hard to be mysterious that it ends up just seeming obnoxious. It drops all these hints about a mystery we clearly know nothing about, then there's a quick info-dump to scratch the itch, followed almost immediately with another hint about something else. The formula was so repetitive that I found myself not wanting to pick the book back up because it was so frustrating.

The Pushed Agenda
For a book told from a male's POV, this sure wants to make a point about how hard it is to be a woman. It reminds us that women can't walk in the dark without feeling safe and that beautiful women will always be harassed and blamed for being beautiful. As a woman I totally get these issues, but it just felt so out of place the way it was discussed in this story. She worked too hard to make a point of it, and it grated for me because it never felt organic. Especially when she spent so much time talking about how attractive the females in this book were. Overall, it was pretty jarring and made me feel awkward.

Final Thoughts
It wasn't terrible, and it definitely had me hooked towards the end, but on finishing the story I was left scratching my head a little, wondering what the heck just happened. It's one of those endings that kind of leaves you disappointed, thinking maybe you missed something. It just kind of - I think the technical term I want to go with here is 'fizzled'.

I never really liked any of the characters, and it all felt complicated for the sake of complication. There were so many secrets that didn't need to be secrets. Because of this, it also feels like there was a lot that was never properly explained.

Certainly not her best work, and a little disappointing when I enjoyed her last one so much. But, as mentioned, maybe I've just become a little jaded with the crime novel formula.

It's intriguing and full of secrets, and it takes some twisty turns for you to explore. If you don't overthink it you're bound to enjoy it well enough, but those looking to be blown away might be a little disappointed.

With thanks to Macmillan for my uncorrected proof ARC

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Wednesday 16 September 2020

Review: The Magnolia Sword: A Ballad of Mulan

The Magnolia Sword: A Ballad of Mulan The Magnolia Sword: A Ballad of Mulan by Sherry Thomas
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Loved the martial arts, liked the characters, not a fan of the war strategy.

Also super weird reading a rather modern, first person account of something that allegedly was taking place back in 484 AD.

But I liked it nonetheless.

One of the best things about this book, in my opinion, is Mulan's fear. She's a trained warrior, which is excellent, and she is loyal to her family, so she doesn't think twice about enlisting to save the rest of her family. Her intentions are honourable. But she wants to come home to them, so if that means hiding out on the sidelines then that's what she'll do. When she does finally see battle, there's no fancy fighting - there's just Mulan dealing with the first serious fight she's ever been involved in and her reaction is raw and real. She's terrified - as anyone would be.

It's lacking the fun of the Disney version, and there's a lot more emphasis on China politics at the time. There's no Mushu or lucky cricket sadly, and there's a serious tone to the whole thing that did unfortunately drag it down for me. But the characters to serve to lighten the mood a little - particularly Kedan, who I was quick to take a liking to.

The martial arts scenes were clearly written by an author who did her research. This was probably my favourite part of the book, reading the intricate details and the strategy of each fighter. I loved it all. Plus I really enjoyed the chemistry between Mulan and Kai when they're fighting - both with and against each other.

I have mixed feelings about it being a YA novel, because the tone seemed wrong to me - it was light on details and the language was modern, so it failed to properly immerse me in the setting of ancient China. But, at the same time, I wasn't particularly keen on all those details anyway so I'm kind of glad it skimmed over it all.

In the end, it was an easy read with some memorable moments, but nothing particularly special. I found it a little bland, but it was a decent re-telling of the legend.

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Review: The Nightingale and the Rose

The Nightingale and the Rose The Nightingale and the Rose by Oscar Wilde
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

UM?!

WHY DID I READ THIS.

Humans are STUPID.

So beautiful and elegant. I wasn't sure about it at first but, man, did I end up getting invested in this lil nightingale. Such a sweet soul.

What a heart-wrenching story.

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Tuesday 15 September 2020

Review: Spite

Spite Spite by Katy Bauer
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

Another nothing book.

Plot: Narrator is jealous of successful people, decides she needs to become successful. Ropes in friend to make a film. Complains the whole time.

It's written like a diary, so the writing is choppy and short and mercifully jumps through the 'action' pretty quick. I say 'action' because most of it is just the narrator getting drunk and stoned and complaining. It's really dull and I skimmed most of it to be honest.

It just had nothing really driving it. I think it's supposed to be sassy and hilarious and we're supposed to laugh at how the narrator is such a ridiculously terrible human being, but it fell flat for me. I found her unbearable and as such it made it really painful to read her diary. She just does not care about anyone or anything but herself. How her husband continues to love her is the biggest mystery of this book.

Honestly, I just didn't care.

There are relationship dramas but the whole filmmaking process is the backbone of the story, meaning this story holds together like soggy cardboard. There are some interesting parts but on the whole it's essentially a pointless story.

It was so dull I can't even be bothered writing more about it.

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Review: Devil's Creek

Devil's Creek Devil's Creek by Todd Keisling
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Okay I went into this really excited but unfortunately it kind of ... fizzled.

Mostly, the story just seemed a good excuse to:
1. Trash talk religion
2. Make people do weird kinky things

The story follows Jack, who is returning to his hometown after his Grandmother's death. Back when he was a kid, he was part of a cult led by Jacob Masters, who fathered six children specifically so he could later sacrifice them. Jack was one of those kids, so now he has to face his past, particularly since it seems, after 30 years, Jacob may longer be satisfied with staying dead.

So it begins with exactly what went down with the demise of the cult and Jacob's death. Jacob is a religious nut who realised God is not above but actually beneath, and he demands blood, suffering and general depravity. To start, I kind of found it hard to believe that this religious nut hears a 'god' from below and doesn't even think about the possibility it's the devil? How did the dude with the horns and pitchfork not even turn up beyond the title? That surprised me a lot. I found it a little unbelievable that this pastor who was so devoted to God suddenly had his switch flipped by a voice from below. Then again, what do I know about religion? *shrugs*

Soon enough it jumps to present day, 30 years later, where the 'Stauford Six' are just trying to live ordinary lives. Jack is the only one who ever moved away - he went off to become a highly successful artist, thanks to the disturbing artwork inspired by his nightmares. Way to capitalise, buddy. Anyhoo, now he's back in town and we're following as he reunites with a few of his siblings and suddenly discovers that his loving grandma was into some weird stuff before she died.

It was all a little too detailed for me. We get to know half the town in greater detail than was really necessary, and it slowed everything down so much. I got King vibes from the storytelling, but it never drew me in like King's work does. Instead we get to know all of these people that just end up meaning very little to the story. Plus all the backstory with the idol got kinda dull after a while.

The violence is graphic yet sporadic, so you can get this really terrifying, gruesome scene, then the next is an info dump of history that's mostly boring. Also, it's so sexualised. I'll spoiler-tag the details, but safe to say some kinky stuff goes down. (view spoiler) It also starts really strong and creepy but then it ends up being more of the same so it gets a bit repetitive, to be honest. It's like it wants to get creative but just misses the mark.

I enjoyed the lore and the building of the story behind this evil, but all the rituals made it a little too confusing for me and at the end of it I'm still not entirely sure I understand it. I feel like so much detail went into it when it was actually more simple? It got a little bit wild and I think a lot of it was kind of wasted.

I think the takeaway message is that people can do crazy stuff when they think they're doing God's will. It definitely takes a nice solid swipe at the devout, but in doing so it divides the town into 'evil religious nuts' or 'outcasts with no faith'. I think I really needed that middle ground to become properly invested.

I never really felt a lot for the characters, and I think that's because we jumped between so many of them. The substance was certainly there but I just didn't stay with them long enough to really get too invested.

Finally, the whole thing just took so long to play out that, by the end, I was just bored. It started strong but then put so much effort into creating substance and fleshing out details; normally this is something I would appreciate but it just felt pointless and wasted on this story. I think the amount of violence and depravity in this story called for less effort in the storytelling. Alternatively, I would have appreciated fewer, more effective incidents of violence. Basically, the balance was off.

Overall it was an enteraining story that I think just took itself too seriously. I didn't hate it, but I think there's a fair bit of room for improvement.

With thanks to Netgalley for a copy.

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Monday 14 September 2020

Review: The Silmarillion

The Silmarillion The Silmarillion by J.R.R. Tolkien
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I think of all the worlds I've visited in books, that created by Tolkien will always be my favourite.

The detail is so rich and its history so compelling that it so easily comes alive for me. If you want to know more about Middle Earth, the info is there. You just have to find the book that tells it. If you're looking for more beyond The Lord of the Rings, this is that book.

Now, I'm not going to lie - the first 150-or-so pages are a bit of a slog. This could be retitled "A Condensed History of Middle Earth" and it begins with the world's very creation. It's basically the Bible of Tolkien's world. Don't look for any mention of familiar names too soon. (This is also very likely the reason I gave up about a third of the way in when I first read it, back when I was 17 or so.)

First, there's The Big Guy, Illuvatar, who brings into being the Ainur, who essentially end up being the gods of this world (The Valar). Then there's the creation of the physical world, and the people destined to inhabit it. It's all described in rather complex detail, so this is not light reading, my friends.

From the very beginning, one of the Ainur has evil intentions, and Melkor (aka Morgoth) swiftly becomes the Big Bad who lurks throughout this entire history, darkening all that the others create. His presence sows the seed of good vs evil, and suddenly this fancy new world is marred into something tragically more recognisable and honestly far more interesting.

So the first half of the book is all about who creates what, who descends from who, what the land looks like, and who ends up in which lands. We know the elves are quick to inhabit, so then we must learn all of the elves of importance, and how they come to scatter throughout the lands of Middle Earth.

It gets incredibly confusing, not least because of the multitude of characters but additionally because each character tends to come with several names, and reference to them is not consistent.

Thankfully, there's an index and a few family trees at the back to assist, though it's not really until great deeds are done that the characters become somewhat familiar.

But, man, when those deeds begin, things start to get really interesting.

The underlying story is about the creation of three jewels, the silmaril, and the quest to reclaim them, yet this actually composes very little of the stories within these pages. It's more about the various fates of all those affected by the existence of the jewels, and the endless feud with Morgoth. The fates are many and varied, and I ended up sticking post-it notes throughout my book to remind myself of some of the most epic occurences within these pages:

We have people chained to mountains, limbs hacked off, people crushed by boulders and thrown from cliffs, destroyed by monstrous creatures, betrayal, murder, incest, lies, greed, arrogance, jealousy, veangeance ... there were actually so many moments in this book where I felt the need to cover my gaping mouth in horror.

I FREAKING LOVED IT.

Eventually I found my favourites among the stories, and characters I got to know and love - Turgon, Maedhros, Thingol and Melian, Hurin, Beren and Luthien and Huan the hound ... and so many others whose parts I loved but then forgot in favour of the next great hero to arise. That's another thing - you hear about the deeds of one, then they disappear from the story for a time, only to reappear later when you've all but forgotten them. It was confusing but it was also kind of fun to have friends coming back into the story.

There are also a lot of echoes of other myths and legends, and of deeds made familiar through The Lord of the Rings. There's definitely a sense that life is circular, and history often repeats.

I loved the complexity of it, but it doesn't make for easy reading. You really have to concentrate on every word of every sentence, so this is only for those fully committed to learning the lore of Tolkien's world. It's told more than shown so it can feel a little tedious at times, but if you stick with it you'll be rewarded by fantastic stories rich in detail. Consider the fact that within 366 pages we have centuries of history and lore - Tolkien actually does pretty well to keep it entertaining.

Truth is, I still managed to feel so much for some of these characters. I loved Thingol so his fate really affected me, and I was bemused to learn that the true hero of the story of Beren and Luthien was actually a dog. I loved that damn dog so much. The story of Turin Turambar horrified me so many times, and Maehdros was one I felt loyalty to without really remembering why. I loved the friendships and loathed the actions of those lacking honour and generally ended up being fully invested in everything. There are also little gems of information that will spark the memory of things read about elsewhere, or embellish a little. For example, one fun fact I learnt is that dwarves apparently went into battle wearing these terrifying masks. Oh if only those masks had appeared in Peter Jackson's imaginings.

Then of course as time draws closer to the Third Age, learning about Aragorn's ancestors was a real treat. Although working out that he was kiiiiinda related to Elrond made things a bit weird, if you follow me.

GUH.

This just ended up being so rewarding to read and I'm really glad for that. It's definitely reignited my love for this world, which never dies but does sleep from time to time as I immerse myself in other worlds.

This is probably only for the hardcore Tolkien junkies, but if you make the effort it will be well rewarded. I know I was.

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Review: The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari

The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari by Robin S. Sharma
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

Once again I am disappointed by a book because I misunderstood what I was getting into.

I honestly thought this was a biographical account of a dude who really did sell all his posessions and wander off to discover the meaning of life. But that's just the ruse the author uses to tell you what he believes are the secrets of life.

It's basically a beginner's insight into spiritual development in a form similar to both The Courage to be Disliked and The Alchemist, in that it uses a fictional discussion between two characters to deliver all its wisdom.

Unfortunately, there wasn't anything new enough here to make up for my disappointment at being jipped on the motivational biography I thought this was.

The setup is this: Julian is a hotshot lawyer who has a heart attack one day in court. This serves as his wakeup call so he sells everything he owns then goes off to India to live among sages who will teach him the meaning of life. Then he comes back and passes on all this wisdom to his hotshot lawyer protege, and this book is essentially that conversation between the two.

Firstly, it's a bit of a stretch that this protege is so open to changing every single aspect of his life so dramatically, and the sporadic attempts at humour just make this more ridiculous. The setup is a poor one, because it's so unrealistic, which doesn't exactly inspire confidence in the methods. It all ends up feeling rather far-fetched instead of practical - and this from a person who completely supports the seven points that are made.

It's almost like the author was too lazy to provide actual facts, figures and examples, so just put all is own thoughts into these two fictional creations. I guess the point is to make it more accessible but it made it seem phony and conceited to me. I guess the delivery just really rubbed me the wrong way.

But aside from that, the concepts it provides are actually quite useful, and it's all stuff I've read repeatedly in books on personal development. It just simplifies it all, which is what I mean about being 'Spirituality for Beginners'. I'm not denying the information, but it just barely scratches the surface. Ironically, it's like the 'quick-fix' version of personal development.

So overall I hated the delivery and it was a little too basic for me, but I do support the information it conveys and think this is a great entry point for anyone who may be looking to begin a little self development.

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Review: Where We Begin

Where We Begin Where We Begin by Christie Nieman
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Well that sure was 1000% more traumatic than anticipated.

What a mess.

Sigh.



Where do I begin? (See what I did there)

The blurb tells us Anna is running away from home. The destination: her grandparents' place (in country Victoria). Grandparents she has never met, so clearly there's a secret there. Plus, there's all the secrets surrounding why she's running. And secrets surrounding the weird relationship between Anna's grandparents and Leonie, an old friend of Anna's mum. Secrets, secrets, secrets. Eeeeeverybody's got secrets.

Sigh.

I hate secrets. Especially dark family secrets. I support Baz entirely on this one: 'Secrets are bullsh*t.'

But what can you do, other than power through the book and hope things turn out okay?

I'm gonna be straight up: the pain in this book is excruciating. But I guess that's what makes it important. It tells a tough story, but it's the same kind of story that so many people can relate to. There are so many elements to its pain that it's almost inevitable every reader will find something in it they relate to and/or empathise with.

For the cautious, here are your trigger warnings: (view spoiler)

At first, I was a little annoyed by how much of an idiot Anna was being. But then this story just became so much bigger and it was like a ten-car pile-up I couldn't take my eyes off. I felt like the secrets were kind of oozing out unimportantly and I thought it was going to miss the mark because I could see where it was all headed but the way it all played out went and got my feelings involved and suddenly I was far more invested than I'd realised.

It's not a perfect novel - it has a point to make, and at times it can feel a little forced with its tactics (for example, emphasising the importance of having open, honest discussions is fantastic but doing so through a 17yr old girl who has literally run away from responsibility seems a bit off to me). It works very hard to offer an appropriate method of dealing with these problems and unforunately it does feel a little hollow in places. But the pain is real and the echoes of it at times feel incredibly overwhelming. This is a story about generations of pain, and as such it is ... well, if I'm honest ... it's kind of a downer.

This is another one of those books that I didn't really enjoy reading, because it was so damn depressing, but I really appreciated the story it told.

It's hard to elaborate further without divulging some of the book's secrets, so I'll just say that this is a book that will make you think, and feel, and want to understand people a little better. It will hopefully make you think about how far pain can carry, and how one small act can affect many lives, whether it be an act of cruelty, or an act of thoughtlessness, or an act of kindness.

I'm pretty messed up over this one, I think.

Not fun at all but an important, thought-provoking read that I highly recommend.

With thanks to Macmillan for an ARC

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Thursday 10 September 2020

Review: Midnight Never Come

Midnight Never Come Midnight Never Come by Marie Brennan
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

So when I started reading this it seemed a little bland, though I was getting through it fast enough. It felt a little lacking in feeling. But then around the halfway mark something clicked and I ended up really enjoying it!

It begins with a conversation between two would-be queens. Thirty years later, Devan finds himself in the services of Queen Elizabeth (the first) and, more directly, her spymaster Walsingham. Beneath London, in the secret realm of the Onyx Court, Lune seeks to regain the favour of the dark Faerie Queen, Indiviana. Naturally, the path of the mortal man and disgraced fae lady are destined to cross.

At first, it all seemed to be meandering along without much of a point. There's a tingle of mystery with the mostly-nonsense-but-sometimes-lucid babbling of Tiresias, the fae court's local mortal-turned-nutjob-from-overexposure, but aside from that, the plot itself wasn't particularly evident.

However I do really enjoy reading about this era of history, so I very much enjoyed the blend of historical fiction and fantasy. The way they threaded together was absolutely a highlight of this novel. There's definitely more of a focus on the fictional queen, but the morsels of history made the whole thing feel more real, and lent that serious tone that this slightly dark fantasy needed.

For me, the characters seemed a little weak early on, but in hindsight I think it's just because they were functioning on their own, towards solitary goals. Around the halfway mark we finally start to see the pieces beginning to move together and from then on I really enjoyed it. I do think it would have benefitted from stronger characterisation of the two leads, Devan and Lune, but by the end of the novel I had come to be rather invested in their goals.

The fae world itself was fascinating and contained a large variety of creatures I have never heard of, as well of some I have but can't picture. There's not a huge amount of detail in the world-building, though, with most of the effort going towards the scope of the fae/mortal divide, and the differences between the two worlds. I never got a particularly clear picture of the Onyx Court which was a little frustrating, but I also appreciate that this book forwent some of the details in favour of moving the plot along.

In the end, the plot took me along paths I definitely didn't expect, which was a bit of a strange feeling but also kind of refreshing. There are some interesting ideas and I feel like a lot only came into it towards the end, yet it still seemed to make sense so no real complaints here. It was odd, but not unwelcome.

I'm intrigued enough to suss out the sequel, but this felt like a complete enough story that I'm satisfied with it for now. I like that in a fantasy series.

An interesting blend of fantasy and historical fiction, with intrigue that begins slowly but really amps up towards the end. If you can make it to the halfway point, the rest will be easy to devour.

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Monday 7 September 2020

Review: Grit: Why passion and resilience are the secrets to success

Grit: Why passion and resilience are the secrets to success Grit: Why passion and resilience are the secrets to success by Angela Duckworth
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

Honestly, I hoped for more.

I picked this book up thinking it would be inspiring; that it would motivate me to find my own grit and understand new ideas about how resilience plays a role in becoming a more successful person.

Then I read This Review and began to worry. I hoped I would interpret this book differently, find some kernel to hold onto that would make this a worthy read. Unfortunately, Andy has pretty much nailed it.

So much of this book seems obvious, and so many times it felt like the author was reaching. Like she's been comissioned to write this book so now not only does she have to come up with unique, fascinating concepts but there's also a decent word count to meet. I just got so bored with it.

Here's the breakdown:
- Hard work and determination outweigh talent when it comes to succeeding
- Hard work is more likely to occur when there is interest in the work
- The work is more likely to be interesting if you feel it has purpose
- If you feel your work has purpose you're much more likely to stick at it

Then there are countless anecdotes about successful people working hard with purpose.

I enjoyed the 'Grit' questionairre, but it's vague and misleading; the first time I did it, I considered the questions generally. My grit score is quite low, because I'm one of those people who drifts from one interest to another. I don't stick with something that bores me, or makes me unhappy. I did it a second time, however, considering the questions in relation to something I am passionate about, and I got a much higher result. So yes, that pretty much confirms the notion that you have more grit if you care about something. But at the same time, so much of the book is about the vague idea of people being 'gritty' without properly considering these multifaceted depths of grittiness.

I agree with most of what is here, but so much is supposition and assumption. The author seems to talk more about her ideas than actual evidence. 'We did this study, and I don't really know why this is the result, but I would guess it's because ...' So even the research is inconclusive, even if highly suggestive.

She also talks a lot about herself? Which honestly came across as more arrogant than helpful.

I have a friend who is a brilliant artist. Once, while looking at some of his work, I said, 'Man, I wish I had half your talent!'

His response? That by envying his talent, I was minimising all of the hard work he'd put into mastering his craft.

For me, that single comment from my friend told me everything this book spent 400-odd pages trying to tell me. I still think about it when I find myself envying the success of others, or wanting my own success.

The takeaway: As much as we admire talent, and fantasise about having it ourselves, to truly be successful in something we need to work at it. By seeing the result of someone's hard work as 'talent', we're excusing ourselves from having to put in the same kind of effort. If you want something bad enough, you'll put in the work. If you don't want to put in the work, you don't want it enough.

I think this book should have been less about how important grit is, and more about how one can find their own grit. It discusses it vaguely, but it seems purposeless instead of motivational; aimless instead of focused. It's crowded with the success stories of others, but the message never changes: determination to succeed is more important than having a talent for it.

It's certainly got some good ideas and will serve as a great awakening for some - this may be the book you need to motivate you to start structuring your life in terms of goals that will lead to your ultimate success. It might encourage you to stop thinking ideally and start thinking practically. It might reveal to you what you ARE passionate about, and what you AREN'T. But it's ultimately a book of ideas, and you're going to have to do a lot of hard work by yourself.

Here's how I think of Grit:
Say you're reading a book and you find it's not really your cup of tea. It's dull, with lifeless characters, and it's riddled with spelling and grammatical errors. It's mostly a chore to read. By the time you finish it, you're exhausted and regret the hours you wasted on it.
Then you pick up a book that has everything you love - brilliant writing, interesting plot, great characters ... you find yourself unable to put it down and when you finish you feel satisfied and happy you chose to read it.

Don't berate yourself for not having grit - you do. You just need to find the passion that unlocks it.

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Review: The Tarot Cafe, #1

The Tarot Cafe, #1 The Tarot Cafe, #1 by Sang-Sun Park
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Ok wow so I flicked through that in like half an hour and WOW.

I forgot how freaking bizarre manga is sometimes. *awkward laughter*

The illustrations are pretty gorgeous and the stories are entertaining but

So

DEPRESSING

I mean this is basically just a book of heartbreak.

That's all the words my brain has time for right now. I need to go hug a puppy.

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Review: The Hollow Gods

The Hollow Gods The Hollow Gods by A.J. Vrana
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

DNF @ 30%

Look, this was probably more me than the book, but it's a tough call.

I was reading an e-copy, which meant it was already likely to be neglected, and unfortunately it just wasn't captivating enough to remind me to go back to it.

It's clearly ambitious, but for me it just seemed a little too messy and sprawling and it always took me a while to pick the thread back up. There are multiple viewpoints, and Kai has some issues that are so vague they're confusing more than intriguing.

Overall, it seemed to be trying a little too hard. It felt amateur and messy and crass. It was clunky and awkward in the way it set scenes and crafted dialogue, and on the whole just made me want to cringe a lot.

I did enjoy Mason's POV to a degree, because he seemed like an interesting character, but some of the scenes were so cliche it was embarrassing. Kai's attitude was overdone, and the girl was so bland I can't even remember her name or the point of her even being in this story.

Perhaps if I had a physical copy of this book it'd be easier to read, but I think it's just a little under-edited so I'd probably still end up cringing a lot as I skimmed my way through it. There really are a lot of cheesy moments and scenes and the whole thing came off as unbelievable.

There's promise in the idea, and the creation of the world, but the delivery was off. The characters are two-dimensional and the story is so vague that 30% in it seemed that nothing had really happened and I wasn't even curious about what was to come.

Others who have more patience than I (and a better track record with e-books) might appreciate this one a little more, and perhaps the reward is beyond the 30% mark. But for me there just hasn't been enough to hook me into reading further.

With thanks to Netgalley for a copy

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Review: The Inner Self: The joy of discovering who we really are

The Inner Self: The joy of discovering who we really are The Inner Self: The joy of discovering who we really are by Hugh Mackay
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

This book is basically an epic therapy sesh that I highly recommend to EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THE WORLD. Literally everyone. If you don't appreciate it, you're proving its point. In which case you need to read it again.

I thought this book would provide some interesting insight into how to get to know who I am deep down. I thought there would be some philosophical suggestions about the nature of the soul and how we can all learn more about ourselves through being more loving, compassionate people.

Both true.

What I did not expect, however, was the emotional rollercoaster this book took me on.

I related to every single thing this book said. If not personally, then by identifying it in others. See, this book talks about all the ways we hide from who we really are. Here's the list he works through:

-Addiction
-Ambition
-Anxiety
-Arrogance
-Busyness
-Complacency/Certainty
-Fantasy
-Fatalism
-'Forgetting'
-Guilt and Shame
-Happiness (pursuit of)
-Information Technology
-Masks and Labels
-Materialism
-Nostalgia
-Perfectionism
-Projection
-Religion and Science
-Victimhood
-Work

If any of these words strikes a chord in you you're going to have some work to do, my friend. And that's just the Top 20.

Honestly, so many of these topics were so revealing I had to put the book down and just sit in the feelings it stirred up. It wasn't fun at all, but it was extremely cathartic - like that sense of refreshment you get after a good cry. Only, through pressing on with the book, I know I only scratched the surface. This book has left me with a lot of homework.

It brilliantly utilises personal stories to demonstrate examples but the way it was written had my mind easily drifting to examples from my own life anyway. It was rather confronting at times but I found the more difficult something was for me, the more it highlighted that it's an area of my life that clearly needs work. The case studies demonstrate that you are not alone - that the way we might be hiding may be detrimental, but it's not uncommon. It grounds ideas in reality, but it also gives hope that these things can be overcome if we choose to put the effort in.

It's definitely going to rub some people the wrong way, but those will be the people in denial - for example, the person who reads the bit about busyness and decides this book is full of crap because they're not hiding from anything, they're just genuinely busy ALL THE TIME. (You're lying to yourself, my busy friend.) Hopefully these people are the minority, and they find their way back to its truths eventually.

It is my hope that people will read this with an open mind and embrace the journey it takes them on, learning more about themselves along the way. I certainly feel that there's more of myself I need to get to know properly.

Honestly, this is one of the best books I've read in a very long time.

The majority of the book involves confronting some hard truths, but it ends with hope. The book concludes with chapters on how to do the work, and resources available. I found that really important, and I'm grateful for it. Without finishing the book, I'd have just been adrift in a turmultuous sea of emotions. Instead, I have a better sense of what I can do to begin the process of finding my Inner Self.

I'll be recommending this to everyone I meet, and I anticipate returning to it regularly. I think I'd even go so far as to say it is the Best Book of 2020. Absolutely life-changing - and I'm not one for meaningless platitudes.

Read it, please.

With thanks to Macmillan for a copy

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Tuesday 1 September 2020

Review: The Hawk

The Hawk The Hawk by Peter Smalley
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

I was a little adrift with this one, I'm afraid.

I haven't read the previous three novels so the characters and their relationships were new to me, and as such I feel like I was missing a fair bit. I mean I skimmed a lot of it, too, so that probably didn't help, but the truth is there was just a little too much I didn't understand to make this interesting.

The story follows two men, Rennie and Hayter, as they do navy things. Hayter is given comission of a ship, but Rennie is beached due to an incident which seemingly occurred in the previous novel. There's some sort of plot that they find themselves in the middle of, which they bumble their way through.

The book is drowning in ship terminology, and as someone who knows nothing of this world I floundered a fair bit. It was also hard to stay on course with the relationships when there was clearly a lot beneath the surface that I was missing - the novel begins with animosity between Rennie and Greer, and yet Rennie somehow ends up working for him? Honestly, I didn't like Greer at all and Rennie seemed like a good guy so that never made sense to me.

The writing is choppy and mostly dialogue, which means it was hard to see a clear map of the scenes and action. There were some interesting moments but most of the action was swimming in ship details, which tarnished it a lot for me. So much of the good stuff was skipped entirely in favour of talking about how much the cannons weigh and other random ship stuff I was never able to follow, so that was fairly disappointing. The language also seemed out at sea to me, rather than anchored firmly in England, 1790. (The 'pish pish' made me laugh out loud.) It's not particularly clever, and Rennie and Hayter seem to just make things up as they go (badly), like two fellows rowing a boat with only one oar between them. Overall, it was a bit of a shipwreck.

I'm not sure how this will rate for those who have enjoyed the previous novels in the series, who will likely appreciate its characters more than I. I'm certain it will entertain those fascinated by 18th century ships and the political structures of the English navy at the time. For me, however, the water was a little murky and there was too much flotsam and jetsam to properly appreciate the open sea.

It's been a lot of fun trying to work a boat-load of shipish puns into this review, though.

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